First you notice a small
lump, and it’s always on your
arse, or your inner thigh (a euphemism
for right next to the balls) or
in your armpit. You’re tensed and
you hope it doesn’t grow.
Don’t touch it! You tell yourself,
but you have this incessant need
to check if it’s getting bigger.
You hold it, caress it, squeeze it,
run to your mother and ask her
if it’s the same size. It should fade!
You cry aloud. Please fade! I can’t
handle another surgery.
You wash, apply soup, maybe
even shampoo, and you sleep.
The next day it’s huge, red and
full of pus. You know you need an
I&D but you try antibiotics.
Soon it’s an antibioma —
large, round, and fiery.
It’s the size of a jawbreaker.
A strawberry flavoured one.
Look, there’s another one on
the other side!
They wheel you into the OT,
use general anaesthesia
which is better than spinal which
makes you believe you’re paralysed.
And you have a few more holes in
your body that need dressing.
Betadine and saline; a gauze
that makes it difficult to take a
shit. You parade your privates
for the nurses to see,
you honour the doctors with
the stink of unwashed wounds
in your armpit.
You lie down and pull off your
pants. Flaunt those buttocks,
hold those balls so they get a better
view. They say smoking did
this to you. You watch and wait now
for the next lump, hoping it isn’t
wedged right in the arsehole.
For dVerse
P.S. This is OP, and this my second offering for Open Link Night. This is my second blog. I’ve commented on your posts using my first blog.
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